Dikiy Muzchinaaaaahhhh

Well - my dress arrived!  And its the PERFECT green.  Its fits like a glove (although I can't be completely satisfied now can I?  No.  But I will refrain from mentioning the problem I have with my belly sticking out too much and my endless battle to find the ultimate control top undergarment that doesn't show through the back of the dress! :::pant...pant:::) 

ANYWAY - moving on.  The dress rocks, now I just need to find a hair-do that works.  Michael Paul says leave it down, but I think if I do I will look more "first-day-of-eighth-grade" and less "Russian-sex-kitten-on-the-prowl."  Oh are my grandparents in for a treat.

In non-showcase news:

Ryan's been trucking away and finally got his first crown patient in clinic.  It felt like he was never going to get a crown there for a while. As his third year comes to a close, we are being forced to look more seriously at our future.  He wants to do a one-year General Practice Residency.  These are programs all over the country at hospitals and universities that rotate residents through procedures on medically compromised patients.  Where will we go?  Colorado?  California?  Florida? Utah?  Stay here?  It's a little stressful because these decisions are going to need to be made very soon due to the application requirements, match program, etc.

It's left me wondering what do with MY future.  I am still at Trillium on the weekends, and I'd like to stay there as long as I can.  It will be 3 years in July and I really love the residents and my coworkers.  Between Trillium and the surgery center, I end up pretty close to full-time hours, if not slightly over sometimes.  But what happens if we move?  What happens if we stay? 

About 6 weeks til Panama.  I can't wait to leave it all behind and snorkel, hike, and eat tons of fruit on tropical shores.

Till next time!

Showcase is coming!

In about a month I will be strutting my stuff in cha-cha form to anyone who cares to shell out the dough for a ticket. The showcase itself is going to be great - there are a bunch of really good dancers preforming to all kinds of great songs.

My fear is that...every performance will be great except for mine. What if I loose my balance and stumble? What if I blank completely? What if everything goes right, but the over all dance is lackluster? I'm scared. The embarrassing part is, Michael Paul and I have been going over it at every lesson - if I'm not dancing it with my eyes closed by now - will I ever have it down?

Don't get me wrong, I know the dance. I just can't preform it with finesse and pizazz just yet. My dess should be here by April 25 and I'm hoping it fits and won't need altered. Ugh, I will be nervous enough about the dancing, let alone worrying about an ill-fitting dress showing every girl scout cookie I've eaten lately.

It will cover me up a little more than this:


Speaking of fat rolls and cookies....I've started running! I know, I know...I've "started running" about 20 times now, but I'm up to 3.6 miles at a time! That's personal record! I am also really trying to lift more. Ryan is always on my case about how I don't do enough strength training, and I'm really trying to do it now at least once a week. I am also passing on drug-rep food at work.

Maybe I will feel better in my swim suit in Panama when that rolls around. 2 months away!